In this moment in time, I find myself 15 minutes away from the release of our exam results. The “most important exam of all”.
I am not nervous, not one bit. What ever result I get will be mine, unique to me, and due to circumstances unique to only me. It will all be my truth , and mine shall it be. So , I am not nervous…
Why should I be?
I prepared well for the examinations, I know I passed. How well ? That is the question. Do I get a bachelor or diploma? Varsity or college? Varsity is what I want and in this moment it’s all just a mystery, a matter as simple as a flip of a coin. It scares a whole lot, still I am not nervous.
Why should I be?
They say; “these results determine the kind of future you’ll have”
Oh what a lie!
Am I not my own person . Should I fail , am I not the one to pick myself up and soldier on?
Am I not? If I pass am not the one to embrace my hard work?
I will make it big , and this i’ll know someday. The day I look back and realise that this was just the beginning. That very day I will have undergone a thousand more. So whether I stress or not in this moment, it changes nothing about that day in my future, not even one bit.
As long as I keep moving forward
I will be a success regardless. How arrogant does that sound? Is this an exaggeration of my abilities? No , not at all. I am just very sure of this. I am as capable as i think i am. And i think i can and will be ranked among the best , among the champions. I am prepared to face my truth, overcome my fears , leave my comfort zone to fight for what my entire being yearns for. The champion title has my name on it , no doubt . So sure that I would bet my life for it.
Success , to me is not gauged by the salary i’ll be earning, nor the house , the car or whatever you can think of. My success will be the fulfillment of my heart and soul, simply because the flesh can never be content. Up until I realise my purpose, and start working to fulfill it, I would have succeeded. Only when I become so engulfed in complete selflessness but never feel lost in myself, I would have made it.
It takes a lot to go through hell to serve heaven. And if one can do that , who am I not to?
Hehe, I might be wrong now , and that is okay, I’m only seventeen, i don’t know much ,but I know that this time around, I’m not nervous! Not even one bit.