So I held it as if doing something of importance, when I all I did was just scroll up and down my contacts just to see your name.
Hours later, I would delete the thousand word long letter confessing my love for you, words that kept screaming in my head.
“Over a Nigga that don’t even check to see if you’re home safely? ”
Tears drop, as if asking for self-pity, I remembered how true that was.
He never cared, he never bothered because if he did, I wouldn’t be doing this.
But, then again the next person cannot tell. They don’t know about me, they don’t know about you and me, so I’ll keep smiling at this gadget of mine, in the nostalgia of what we once had.
They’ll never know. They’ll think I’m just yet another teenager so engulfed, so wrapped around their lover.
This goes to you, my man…
Father of my children, my friend, husband, my soulmate.
It’s really cold, and dreary and you are not here
Loving someone else wouldn’t work because they are everything else besides you.
When do I get to hold you tightly, when do I get to rest my head on your chest
Let’s leave the rest, but when are you going to give me your very best
You know what that is
Let me rather not say,
it’s (sshh our secrets)!
Oh for the love of god I’m freezing, it’s a cold winters night
Jesus is only here so that I don’t get any frights
but I’m running out of might.
Let your arrival be steady,
My heart is heavy ,without you I’m paining
I’m lonely ,im cold ,it’s raining
For you future husband.